Lately it just feels like a lot of work. Go to an activity to try to meet new people. Small talk, small talk, small talk. Lots of dates. Jilted conversations. Smile and act interested. Texts and phone calls. More dates. I know it's better than no interest at all, but I just feel exhausted. I haven't had my heart woken up in such a long time.
I just feel like it should be more comfortable, more fluid. I'd like to fall in love with a friend, someone who I'm comfortable with and myself around. I'd like to take it slow and give it time. I don't want to rush it.
Dear Future Gentleman:
Let's fall in love. Let's hold hands under the starry sky's blanket of warmth. Let's share our dreams and hopes and ambitions and take this life by storm together.
Love You to Eternity & More,
"There are far better things ahead than anything we leave behind." C.S. Lewis