I have never been this heavy before, and so I feel extremely unattractive. I miss my muscular body and confident aura I had a few years ago. I am not skinny; nor do I think I ever will be. I don't have a tiny, petite body that every yearns for. I'm not built like that, and I need to learn to love myself.
You shouldn't place this much emphasis on outward appearance, but I find myself doing it regardless of what everyone tells me.
It's not fun feeling sad!